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Small victory: I finally cooked dinner for myself without crying

Honestly it's been six months since my ex moved out and I've mostly been living on cereal and takeout. Last Tuesday I decided to just make a simple pasta with jarred sauce and frozen veggies. I stood in my tiny kitchen in Portland and burned the garlic because I was distracted. But I scraped off the burned bits and finished it anyway and sat down and ate a real meal at my own table for the first time in forever. It was actually pretty good and I felt like I did something for myself instead of just surviving. I didn't cry or get angry and that felt like a huge step forward. Has anyone else had random small moments like this that made you feel like you were actually healing?
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valh32
valh3220h agoMost Upvoted
Nice work, you officially adulted better than most people on a Tuesday. That burned garlic? That's just character building, or as I call it, "artisanal smokiness.
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the_holly
the_holly16h ago
Oh man @valh32 is right about the artisanal smokiness - my friend Jenna burned her toast so bad once it set off the smoke alarm and she still ate it.
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